Wendy Wu

Started a new job this Monday with Royal College of Surgeons. Friends send in loads of congratulations as if it were them that found a new job. Somehow I could understand it,given the global financial crisis. I had a very mixed feeling as if moving away from an entangled relationship within a spiderweb. I couldn’t find a proper word to express myself. Maybe that doesn’t really matter that much any more. Life goes on and life is learning. Friends around are much emotional than me. To be honest, after my home visit this year, my mind is much calmer. At least I could shrug my shoulder which I might not be able to do that before the trip. My emergency call in St. Mary alarmed me.

Back to a mainstream service, somehow it is a pride and exciting experience. But  I can’t answer yet. At least, bottom line for sure is that I am going to be treated as normal adult with respect and we will play equal part. A couple of days ago, a friend dropped me an email saying: ” find a bay, park your heart, have a rest……. I have been there, which is a heart aching with indescribable pain…” I was full of tears, for her silent friendship.

I know this Xmas is going to be very special for me. Eight years is a milestone. I will remember exact on the same day after eight years, I have been offered a job under such a bad financial crisis. There might be  some magic power shining its way towards me, of which I pray for all the way through.

Granny used to tell me when I was a little girl,”if you going to people’s house being a guest, if they offer coco cola to you without opening it, please make sure not drink it. ” I couldn’t figure out why, but now I understand the complexity of being an adult. I understand love comes with an action. Big love without sound as we Chinese say.

Life is a journey of learning. We learn as we go along. Tomorrow maybe still is raining again, but after rain, it is bound to be sunshine. Thanks for those friends are standing behind me supporting me in my journey. We Chinese say Big love always don’t make any noise. I found a western quote: A Christmas candle is a lovely thing;
It makes no noise at all,
But softly gives itself away.
~Eva Logue

Posted on December 18th, 2008 by wendywu
Filed under: life